1st draft...new thing...

just gonna publish this real quick...

The real cause of problems in agriculture and humanity
in general deals with logic, necessity, awareness, and
economics of the mind.  Values play the largest roles
when making important decisions...regarding food, shelter
and warmth, or general protection of self. Now, where
the logical necessity of being aware of the economics
of nature often becomes a metaphorical conscience
and imaginary choice is too often where problems start.

Animals, including humans...Insects...Plants and Trees...
all are effective producers of what we call "life."
Being a civilized community, country, or world requires
awareness of the values we often take for granted...

When ecosystems that flourished before human beings
seemingly lost the awareness that we are indeed not
supreme beings, nor rulers on this planet have become
sometimes too desolate, undernourished, and vacant, there
is a necessity to bring back the awareness of economical
values in order to prevent a further split between
our species, selves, and the world cradling us.

Too often, people forget that the other lives around us
have been given the opportunity to live as we have.
Birds play just as large of a part in our world as we do.
Insects, some of whom spread disease, others of whom
nourish the plants and trees that produce and filter
our respiratory systems' function of alchemical
conversion - air to momentum and energy, might overrun
too many other forms of life if birds were not around.
Household pets, while often overlooked, bring eternal joy
as well as some form of indescribable wisdom to most
families that include them... However, why do these
animals, trees, bugs, and lives not get recognized
as being just as conscious, aware, and thoughtful as
us? Why is it that humans shun genital mutilation in
certain countries, yet have the "right" to mutilate
a different species of life's genitals...? Why have we
all lost touch with our cradling factors in such a
stable earth? Where is the education process falling off
the cliff? While the world is always balancing itself,
through what we call "natural disasters," we are fortunate
enough to have the chance to enjoy what americans term
as a pursuit of happiness; and, if we were on, say, Mars,
there would be a much more unstable set of circumstances
regarding planetary security. Why is it that a human being
obsessed with a scientific dissection of the smallest
parts of cells is praised, yet a person who chooses to
say that she relates more to cats is considered a crazy
cat lady? What essentially is the difference?

more short film stuff...patriot...vessels...acrostics...clock...painting

Since I'm almost organized/settled in the new place...been working on some stuff...

wanted to cover a song in an interesting way so I'm gonna do a guitar/vocal only cover of two alice in chains song, fitted to one, in a remixture as i call them... these are the words:

am i staying away?

yeah, hey...i'm gonna travel south this year
hope won't prevent a passage there
hey, yeah, eye tears will soak a calloused heart
lonliness shadowing greed
quickening the darkest
miles below itself
miles beside yourself
miles behind myself
yeah, hey...yeah...tears are streaming down your face...
hope cannot stop the waterway
crawling thru surfaces of skin
visible surrounded by death
miles beside itself
miles behind myself
miles below yourself
am i inside myself
while you act frightened
ive been enlightened
so close to stay yet shifty and shady
yeah, hey, i hope to travel south this year
why stay awake?
smile beside the empty souls
artificial curvature
i stay away

reworked some warlock stuff wordwise...
little tidbits:

slippery
=====

slide down around foundations
i just cant find a shelter
shot down like distant thunder
lightning strikes breaking mirrors
they're so fuckin bright
keep shining
how long will they stay focussed
my wheelchair and i are waiting at the doorstep
how long will they stay sharpened
stay focussed
times burning slow outside
keep treading
its slippery inside
some still birth
ghosts hunting all around me
keep moving
my wheelchair and i are rolling around sideways
keep haunting

ghost hunting on the ground
stay focussed
my teachers and i are swimming with the sharks now
my body is my mind
your focus
my wheelchair and i
we're rollin...
its slippery outside this ocean
my bbq my time
this smokehouse
ghosts hunting on the ground
keep burning
my wheelchair and i keep sliding
its slippery outside
stay focussed

grassfire
======
arrows oxidized 

they say you will fail
steal and you will become like someone else
landmines and light
just like travelling thru time

Acrostics change ups for even burning notes:

[initial vocal demo here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T0ig965DhsM ]

we've been burning...

cryptographic...

decipher the darkness...

sleep deprived

seeing giant turtles

instead of pillows

gnawing knotted

fingers of god pushing...

make ends blush...

its still bombing...like

earth...

cryptographic...

frozen coastal drifting...

slinky song

sunglassed dome

epicentrical flaw 

continental shifting

even burning...

the sun stares from a distance

heat loss thru the head

nerve endings blow the wind

when the night has been lost

temperature sensation

the satelittes orbit...

nod the sundial

with no knowledge of self

disappearing and reappearing

darkness regulation

for warmth alone

brakes in alarm systems

metabolic functions grind

the colors of a sunrise

and cubical blindfolds

postulating the mirrors

and numbness in a psychic world

we've been burning

lust like sin...

intelligence...

whisper out loud...

even burning

if there's a present

no ones listening...

scuffle...

index palm trees...

hymns...sands...tumbling...

the finger of god apprehends...

attention is on detail

hand outs fade like metal

shiny metallics

lysectomized habits

split like cadaveurs

yahtzee body kind of cold

fielding microscopes

day by day

not dividing

interphased and consumed

excretions and connections

coughs and whispers

slurred speech

spit, splitting blisters

brick wall blinding speech

front door with wine

legs and buckets beat dry

those fishnets...

eye catching lashing evil

good rights and left wrongs

breasts, implantes, manchurian chips

and thongs, confusing as cryptographic

depictions...

in this coffin of a house

somethings listening

even burning...

embossed heat like galactic

tissue samples

dissolved patterns

colormetrical

gambles of debts

all growing old

sleeping like mold

stench of a washed bra

even burning...

binary codes

burning man

superficial skin

third degree burns

the dirty and darkest

ash cartilidge thickness

muscular bone, layers of epidermis

keep the rusty barrel shined,

primed, sanded, and coated with sparkle

polypeptide calorie blinded eyes

chakral insights, fractals, and cataracts

theres a blind fold

finger pointers, laser levels, and mongoose trax

shed like skin with nutrients

fishing nets are just a habitat

even burning...

lingere becomes a drink

surveillancing thru fabric

stickered pricetags help people think

like a snake remembers its past

that monitored cryptographic depictions

encryptions of a world deciphering the darkness

we've been burning...

And a cool clock listen thru story...

Was driving around, listening to the first clock demo...with the first vocals...which all came out pretty well...and I have been loving this one song in particular on clock, 14...vulture...

so, as I'm listening to Vulture and heading home, I see about 25 Turkey Vultures circling around...must of been some big dead animal or something...but it was such a cool synchronicity....

Started a painting I planned to start next year...the aluminum can/women thing...grinded a circle in a piece of wood and primed it...came out nicely...

almost done with Forecast as well, which has taken forever...

need to buy more acrylic paint...

and the working concepts for STRING [short film]

[ADULT AGED MATERIAL]

toothpaste splatters on camera

woman brushing teeth

she's like... in ultimate pleasure...

pan out and dude is eating her out while she's brushing her teeth

sink turns on >>water transition

dog drinking water downstairs

looks at the leash

string at hardware store closing hits a circular crate with more string

a broken basket is beside it...

male/female employee having..restocking "fuck sex"

woman slaps the cash register 

pan to>>

powerline buzzing outisde

outside view

step ladder stop motion shots...

black and white freeze frame

big vulture lands on lamp post

wings lower and film transition to

sleep scene

sunrise

dog/woman/man scene

hardware store employees

phone call

old telephone line

from cabin in TENT

"Government shut-down"

So, was checking the news...kind of embarrassing that despite the jackasses in society playing kiddie games all the time, some faggot republicans are trying to fuck the country in the ass some more by..you guessed it...kiddie games...

But, why?

Is it really that big of a deal that millions of people who protested for change... in a clearly uneducated way sometimes... (occupy movement...general population's vote for Obama...) want to be healthier, more productive, useful citizens? Fuck yes it is... 

I'm quite frankly goddamn tired of reading about these piss-ant wanna be kings trying to fuck up everyone in the country over a health care reform law....

Ain't that grand in your stuck up English-like stereotypical party anymore...just old and fuckin dementiated.

What the fuck, morons? Did you wear diapers after you were potty trained because it was too much of a fuckin change? Are you that retarded that you're willing to fuck with the freedom of the country you claim to love or "claimed to love before the last election ended?" It doesn't make sense. Its not making cents nor dollars throwing a stubborn childish faggot pissy fit over and over and its really shameful that these hard-assed, stick in their brain, thumb-in-their-ass-post-it-note-forgetful-fuckwads are making the U.S. appear like some stubborn bitch-ass, greedy, gridlocked place that's essentially mocking but ironically following all the bullshit that happened in apartheid ridden times, the conflicts in Korea that split it up, and basically most communist countries who didn't make it....and basically going against America's core values... Pursuit of happiness means health is essential...if no one is healthy, no one is happy... if you don't realize people can't afford health care and it needs to be affordable, get a fuckin IQ test before you silently protest and embarrass the rest of the community...

Why?

Because apparently, the best president to date [Barack Obama] is the only politician around who is willing to see all sides of a spectrum in humanity...more importantly in a country...and make an educated decision...for the welfare of this country...not for some stereotypical welfare "assistance"...

Franklin Roosevelt said something similar to this next bit....

There is nothing to really worry about, except worry itself.

Bunch of paranoid, faggot republican cowards...you all need to wake the fuck up.

I'm not even really worried about it...just severely disappointed with a large portion of the government....

Post Office Barcodes..

One of the members of my house is experiencing a flaw in the education system... She was supposed to have received her check via mail; however, we moved to a different city-same state.  So, seeing as the post office isn't doing so well, I came up with a solution...

Barcode stickers...

This would let people know where ANY piece of mail is...whether or not its been moved or is still in a mailbox...yadda yadda...

It would work like this: The government would produce the stickers up to a certain weight...the more weight, a little fee of like 5 cents would be affixed...but for most letters, postcards, etc...it would be a way for everyone to know where their piece of mail is...

This would also bring in a computer sector/database to the post office---more jobs in the technology field...

Would be really healthy for the USPS...

a-g-r-i-c-u-l-t-u-r-e

All these eastern hemisphere "terrorist attacks" really shed one thing to light: Humanity's flaw. Ignorance. Lacks of intelligence... Stupidity: genetically engineered...but by what?  What could be the trigger for this kinda nonsense?

There should be a new word for it all:

Ungratefuckallstupid - (adj.) (n.) - The lack of ability to recognize personal health failures and/or lack of proper bodily chemical balance...resulting in numerous violent wastes of life.

Usage: (adj.) The ungratefuckallstupid way was to mindlessly release their pent up anger into murders.

(n.) The ungratefuckallstupids killed hundreds without even realizing what was happening outside of their egocentric senses.

Anyways, the source is clearly lack of agriculture... deserts can't produce much without proper care... A lot of people don't care....

There was that experiment...ironically, in Kenya and surrounding areas...wherein western "missionaries" tried to plant fruits and vegetables in the toughest of agricultural areas...Didn't work so well after a while...

Dehydration, lack of wisdom and/or freedom, and lack of education to counteract total regression into non-civilized, unstable, non-community-like areas are a big problem in the places where the source of all the terrorism is from.  Such a horrible feeling of disgust is lingering around the human world these days.... Why is it that people cannot communicate diplomatically, peacefully, and intelligently when it is clearly the best solution, yielding a better outcome than a bunch of corpses...?

This does not make sense... Whatever weird-ass "force" is ripping intelligence away from humanity...be it ego-centrism, ethnocentrism, or plain old apathetic laziness really needs to fuck off...

Anyways, it rained on the other side of the world...here in the bay area.....it was soothing...hopefully it will be the beginning of the end of the climactic chaos that's been tornado-ing a world into oblivion...

I would like to see more agricultural solutions...not weapons...be focused on in the eastern hemisphere... no matter how many people blame something else, it is the clear problem...

Plenty of solutions are possible...Violence is just tarnishing the land, mind, body, and soul.

Talk about bi-polarism in humanity... I thought there were only two poles...the North and the South when I was little....now its clearly more of a gyroscope kind of world...and I kinda dig it when all the spokes on the metaphorical wheel are in good shape...

People and "Animals"

Noticing this more and more lately...

Animals are way more intelligent than most humans....and if not, equally intelligent...

But, here's what I don't get...everyone got all butt hurt [pun intended] about gay rights, one human death, "chemical poisoning," and gun laws...yet, hardly anyone wants to make some kind of general population understanding about how humans are not the only lifeforms... hardly any animals are fags...for one, and furthermore, pets, who have had their genitals mutated....by humans....for "population control" with homeless problems and overpopulation in the human race....and AIDS viruses being handed out like candy in some places.....and a bunch of mental problems being called "illnesses"....anyways...pets, who've had their genitals mutated, still provide way more for their "owners" than they ever get credit for.

So, new place...first thing that happens...all the local wildlife introduced itself...first the birds, then the vultures [5 feet away...rare]...then the possums...and the horses...now the mountain lions...deer...cats...squirrels? Why? Because I'm not a fuckin' retarded human...and unlike most [faggot] humans calling themselves "persons," these animals are all about communication... and I totally can communicate with them... Even the local dogs are starting to ask me about things and it makes me really sad that everyone else treats them like slaves...

Then there is the whole "rights" issue... I honestly think dogs, cats, birds, squirrels, deer, bears, wolves, buffallo, trees, rivers, fishes, and a bunch of other animals deserve just as many "rights" as humans do...

Not becoming a vegan or any bullshit like that...BBQd a wonderful dinner for the Aunt, Uncle [Aunt's bro] and mom... Sucks that my cousin, who is literally addicted to "Hollywood" wants to come over on Saturday to watch the Emmy's..... Why?

At least the full moon is nice...

Shooting Range, Pruning trees, settling in...

Sure does take a while to reorganize after a move...happened last time [from Oakland to Alameda] and this time is not as bad, but...there's just this energy like "Ok, where would I put these in this new environment...." I'd say it takes about as long to settle in as it does to move everything, packaging..yadda yadda....

Sore arms. Lotta tree pruning these past few days... Why? Well, there's this slope backyard in this new place...and apparently, no one from the home owners' crew has ever seen things remotely close to my view of a living environment turned to home...

1. The plants and trees produce everything good about fresh air... when they get all tangled up or certain weed/vines start choking some of the trees, someone living in the area who can, should help clean up the situation.

2. Trees need haircuts too. When they're young, they have a bunch of branches, all with the goal of getting light... When they get stronger, height becomes important so a lot of the little guys need to be recycled and chopped.

3. Who the fuck lets some fuckin trees pull down a fence they put up?

Anyways, ha. Went to the shooting range on Sunday....shot a bunch...still have pretty good aim for being a few years rusty.... did the best with the .22's and the 9mm... obviously the big brother of the 22....whatever fuckin caliber it was....isn't as useful to me.... anyways, got in trouble after the first target change; shit was hilarious.... The shooting range has this one huge rule, when all the weapons are on the bench and people are walking to or from the target areas, we are not supposed to go near the bench at all....court room shit...anyways, sure enough, on the way back, totally tried to put the left over target stickers on the bench and got yelled the shit out of... I took it well...then a short time before the next round, someone else and another person made the same mistake...

Apparently, a lot of people do this, but goddamn, the overseers are good at noticing... Great activity...

Was surprised at how little of a kick the bigger caliber gun I shot had...

.22 handguns are pieces of shit, btw.

Worked a bit on some painting stuff...wrote a song to record as one of those on the spot songs for the vessels vocal sessions coming up...

yawn.

Almost moved...in...

So, was reading about lunar/solar calendars a lil while ago and realized....Not rocket science, but the Egyptians used to work via lunar calendars...which means...maybe they rested most of the days, and built the pyramids/worked at night... makes sense...the heat.

Anyhow, settling in...little sore from all the moving... 3 households into 1 is a tough transition... Cool wildlife.... They're more welcoming than most of the people; decided that I can't stand those businesses who drive around and hand out businesscards.... what a bunch of fuckin' weirdos...

Example: Yesterday, I was pulling out of the driveway to get some food...hungry as shit...and this fuckin' truck pulls up trying to sell me frozen meat; told the dude I wasn't interested and he got annoyed? "I'm trying to give you a businesscard..." I said "Yeah, I guess I'm kind of an asshole." He was like "I could tell."  What a fuckin waste of time... If it were legal, I would shoot those kind of people on the spot... But, anyways, at least the new house has minimal disturbances as opposed to the hell condominium that I managed to survive...

Ha.

Almost Moved...

Ah, so...been packing...not in the ghetto terminology...but packing...and moving... and started to work out the voice again for singing the past few days... Love the new place....a couple of horses around, gopher snakes, raccoon, hot tub...salt water pool...and I'm almost done moving....probably gonna use a Futon tomorrow night and the movers are moving the furniture on Sunday...

Going to be a better environment...room is a little small, but big enough...and the best part: It has lights....I've been living in a room without a light for the past 3 or so years...and the new one has a window as well....feels like I've been living in a sort of box...glad to multiply and move finally...

Was thinking I'm gonna cut down on drinking a bit....just because I don't wanna get into the habit....

Enjoyed a few menthols for the first time in a long time....I think of cigarettes as like..distant friends who come around from time to time now...strange...

Pretty sleep deprived today...but happy to have been able to move all the big stuff [non furniture wise] on my own...

And, I'm thinking about the weirdest thing: How I plan to start using the Bow I have at the local archery range again...gotta get some new sights for it....however, hopefully plenty of job opportunities will allow that to be a breeze breathing through the next few weeks....under the ceiling of the sky...

Played some of the demos while driving....good reactions in Oakland so far as well...

Gonna record when unpacking is completed in this order: Patriot Guitars/Vessels Vocals....then who knows...maybe some newer stuff...

Pausing on painting for a bit....although almost done with two more...